Insecurities

Insecurities can be so dangerous and have a great capability to ruin everything (if you let them).

I believe that everyone has insecurities.
Some people "show" their insecurities easily, but some might hide it quite good then you have to know them well before you find out their insecurities.

I have my doubts as well. I have insecurities. To people whom I know very closely, they will find out that my insecurities can be quite destructive (let ask my boyfriend).

Actually, on some level, insecurities help us to keep grounding. To keep us sensitive, and aware of the dangers that might come. But above that "healthy level", insecurities never bring good things. So we have to learn how to control it.

I tried several things to overcome my insecurities.

In the past I tried yoga and meditation. But the outcome is not as expected to be honest. I mean, I enjoyed Yoga very much in my gym place, but every time we do meditation, I rather sleep.

The best 'run away' from the anxieties and  thinking about my insecurities, is by doing active exercises. I'm running, 3 times a week. I do dancing. And believe it or not, by doing active exercises, I am capable to forget all of that negative energy and becoming happier, sexier, and more positive!

I also do writing (like this) to overcome the anxieties and negative energy.

In general, I think having some hobbies definitely will help you.

And what activities drive me toward the abyss of insecurities?
Social media. Easy answer.

Social media (not every time) will make me anxious and insecure. Whether I saw my friends have nicer holiday, nicer things, nicer relationship, nicer blablablabla. It bugging me sometimes.

When I saw that my boyfriend's ex friended my boyfriend's family in social media, I'm totally upset. I do not know why. It doesn't mean anything anymore. My boyfriend said, he don't care and I should not care either. But it bugging me.
So I talked to my boyfriend, arguing with him and asking him to talk to her sister to be my friend, in social media. It ended in a nice way actually, I was introduced to his family. But let's imagine, how it will more lovely if it ended without argument with my boyfriend.

Second example, when I posted photos in instragam, deep down in my heart, I expected people (my followers) to like it. And I feel this 'obligation' to keep liking their photos, even though to be honest, I didn't even like the photos.

Don't you think that it's kind of sad. We pretend to like other people picture, so they will like back our photos even tough both of parties didn't really like the photos.

Social media sometimes can be destructive for our mental health. Seriously. So my boyfriend said, stop thinking to much about social media and lets have better and healthier life.

To be honest, he is a much better social media user than me. He rarely let those kind of thing bugging to much. He just drooling the instagram for his own pleasure. He even deleted his path account.

Well, I tried to be more like him to be honest. To be more care-free about social media. To not let things to control me, but me taking control of things.