Let's face it that we all have some superficial reason to love someone.
I do care and have affection about my boyfriend, in a true way. But when I first met him, I have a very specific superficial reason about why I like him.
Well, it's about the fact that he is a tall guy, kind of super tall for Indonesian.
I'm a hobbit size, so since I was little, I always think that if I will end up with someone then it will be with someone tall (you know, due to anthropological reason).
Then, I'm wondering, hypothetically if he shrunk into hobbit size, will I still love him like today? It's very random thought.
Why?
I remember that I told him one day when we discuss about his hair, that even though he's becoming bald or fat or darker, my feeling will never change. And I mean it. Those things doesn't matter to me. I can easily trivialize those issue.
But, how if it is about his height, something that I always love about physically. How if he shrunk into my hobbit size. Can it be trivialized easily as well? Of course this question is a moot point. He cannot be suddenly becoming short like me, but you know, we talk hypothetically.
Maybe not that easily, correct? Because even though it is not crucial or important and very superficial, but it is one specific thing that I love about him. Something that I don't have but he has it, and I feel like it complete me, cover my flaw.
You know, I care and love him deeply and truly (again I say it). I never thinking about someone else like I do about him. But I realize that my feeling is not perfect. It's tainted by my superficial and selfish human characteristic.
It's very "human" indeed.
There is no perfect love between a man and woman. It is always corrupted by something. It's not like God's love for example, who can love us beyond all of that physical appearances.
Yes, I admit how superficial and how deformed my love is. It's limited.
Love is not perfect. The extreme changes either physically or mentally in people that we love can affect us. To be honest.
But the next question will be, should we give up on something because our nature as human being is corrupted and deformed from beginning. No. We won't give up. I definitely will not.
I will never leave him because one stupid reason. I love him in so many ways and for so many reasons. Even though I cannot change the fact that my feeling can change temporarily because my human nature which I can deny, but the commitment between us is strong enough to passed those stupid obstacles. I have many other reasons to stay love him.
Love is not perfect.
But love with commitment and honor and friendship hopefully will remain true.
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