Was Ugly

I opened my facebook page two days ago. To be honest, for me facebook is a bit outdated, I rarely open it anymore. But, my boyfriend's mother add me as friend in facebook, so I have to open it and confirm the friend request (of course!).

Well, after quite long time never really care about the photos there (most of the photos are from my college era), I open it again.

And bam!  I'm quite shocked with the photos. I try to say this in a nice way, but yes to be honest, I looked very ugly on my college days.

OMGGGGGG!! My skin is quite dark, I even cannot remember that I have been that dark. You know, in college I was take 'ancot' twice a day, so I kind of blame it. And you know, I don't even bother to wash my face with special face shop (so saaad). Not finish yet..and my hair looked so messy, like I've never combing my hair, looked very dull. And my clothes and my shoes, terrible. 

Well, I was shocked, but then I started to laugh my self loud. I mean, I was ugly, but I have so many fond and good memories there. My college days are definitely one my favorite time in the world. I felt free, literally, like a bird, in the college, you know, intellectually, spiritually. I felt genuinely happy.

I realized two things after opening my facebook page again. One, I'm so grateful that after working, I have enough money and enough capability to realize the importance to take care my self physically. And, second, I'm also feel grateful that I spend four amazing year in my bachelor degree. It was quite awesome! I can see myself as you know, an intelligent entity, surrounding with so many smart, amazing friends (well I studied in ITB, so believe me, my friends are crazy smart asses), and I have so many times to thinks about matter things except myself.

It doens't matter anymore that I was looked so ugly (physically) back then. I was so happy and that supposed to be counted, correct.